I forgot....
how much I love this movie.
how much I love this movie.I am currently watching it in my ethics class.
I remember seeing it for the first time and sitting on the edge of my seat the entire time.
I was so excited to be watching a movie that involved everything I was learning about.
This movie brought up some of my recent thoughts....
So for journaling purposes here it goes:
The other day I ran in to an old high school friend.
She said to me...
"Karly you are just so determined and such a go getter"
Suddenly my heart sank.
Suddenly, I worried that I am "that girl"
You know, the one who is "too busy to date" or "too busy to do this or that"
The girl who is too serious and never takes time to make people dinner or cookies
The girl I never wanted to be.
The ones Mary and I always laughed at for just being too serious about life.
It is what I like to call the "Staples girl dilemma"
It is a blessing and a curse my Dad passed on to us
He always told us we that we are brilliant, beautiful and talented.
He told us we could become ANYTHING we wanted....and be a Mom.
And so we've all dreamed big.
Now, we have a dentist, a big business exec., a big wig editor/writer, an industrial designer, etc.
But suddenly I fear that people are getting the wrong idea about WHO I want to BECOME.
My sister Sharisa said to me a few days ago...
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
And then she continued to tell me about Dylan and Ella and the little things that make me smile.
I told her I know what she wants to be.
She wants to be a Mom.
Each day - almost each hour - something reminds me of what I really want.
Today these cute little ones entered the newsroom and I was reminded of what I want in the end.
While a very small fraction of me dreams of becoming Della from State of Play...
The majority of me dreams of having a family.
Sometimes I wonder if I did the wrong thing.
Did I choose the wrong major?
Should I be doing "the motherly" major?
(I did take WAY too many of those credits after all)
Why can't the family part be something you set a goal to achieve...
work hard..
and you get the perfect life you always dreamed of?
So today, when I read over this quote...
God expects you to have enough faith and determination and
enough trust in Him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing.
In fact, He expects you not simply to face the future
(that sounds pretty grim and stoic);
He expects you to embrace and shape the future--
to love it and rejoice in it and delight in your opportunities.
God is anxiously waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and
fulfill your dreams, just as He always has.
But He can't if you don't pray,
and He can't if you don't dream.
In short,
He can't if you don't believe."
— Jeffrey R. Holland
I remembered something very important.
I remembered I can shape my future.
I remembered that it's ok for me to dream of being successful and educated.
I remembered that it's ok to dream of a family.
I remembered that I can have both.
I remembered that to me having an education is a success whether I work 1 day or 1 million days.
I remembered I have to believe in all of it.
But mostly I remembered that I believe in the cherry on the top....but my favorite part is the ice cream.
Tonight...after I went to school.
Worked hard.
Studied hard.
I got to play with these munchkins again.
I got to read books.
Play with American Girl Dolls.
Laugh at Photo Booth for over an hour.
Talk about everything we want to do for the upcoming holidays.
Look at Valentines.
Sing songs.
Tuck them in.
Say nighty night prayers.
And OF COURSE
Dance to Hannah Montana.
(listen to the very end...
right to sleep...
maybe what we all thought of Book of Mormon stories at that age??)
And I remembered what I said when I was just a wee one.
When I grow up I want to be just like my Mom...
And all the rest...
all the education
all the papers
all the interviews and big names..
all of that is
just the cherry on the top.
I remember seeing it for the first time and sitting on the edge of my seat the entire time.
I was so excited to be watching a movie that involved everything I was learning about.
This movie brought up some of my recent thoughts....
So for journaling purposes here it goes:
The other day I ran in to an old high school friend.
She said to me...
"Karly you are just so determined and such a go getter"
Suddenly my heart sank.
Suddenly, I worried that I am "that girl"
You know, the one who is "too busy to date" or "too busy to do this or that"
The girl who is too serious and never takes time to make people dinner or cookies
The girl I never wanted to be.
The ones Mary and I always laughed at for just being too serious about life.
It is what I like to call the "Staples girl dilemma"
It is a blessing and a curse my Dad passed on to us
He always told us we that we are brilliant, beautiful and talented.
He told us we could become ANYTHING we wanted....and be a Mom.
And so we've all dreamed big.
Now, we have a dentist, a big business exec., a big wig editor/writer, an industrial designer, etc.
But suddenly I fear that people are getting the wrong idea about WHO I want to BECOME.
My sister Sharisa said to me a few days ago...
I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
And then she continued to tell me about Dylan and Ella and the little things that make me smile.
I told her I know what she wants to be.
She wants to be a Mom.
Each day - almost each hour - something reminds me of what I really want.
Today these cute little ones entered the newsroom and I was reminded of what I want in the end.While a very small fraction of me dreams of becoming Della from State of Play...
The majority of me dreams of having a family.
Sometimes I wonder if I did the wrong thing.
Did I choose the wrong major?
Should I be doing "the motherly" major?
(I did take WAY too many of those credits after all)
Why can't the family part be something you set a goal to achieve...
work hard..
and you get the perfect life you always dreamed of?
So today, when I read over this quote...
God expects you to have enough faith and determination and
enough trust in Him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing.
In fact, He expects you not simply to face the future
(that sounds pretty grim and stoic);
He expects you to embrace and shape the future--
to love it and rejoice in it and delight in your opportunities.
God is anxiously waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and
fulfill your dreams, just as He always has.
But He can't if you don't pray,
and He can't if you don't dream.
In short,
He can't if you don't believe."
— Jeffrey R. Holland
I remembered something very important.
I remembered I can shape my future.
I remembered that it's ok for me to dream of being successful and educated.
I remembered that it's ok to dream of a family.
I remembered that I can have both.
I remembered that to me having an education is a success whether I work 1 day or 1 million days.
I remembered I have to believe in all of it.
But mostly I remembered that I believe in the cherry on the top....but my favorite part is the ice cream.
Tonight...after I went to school.
Worked hard.
Studied hard.
I got to play with these munchkins again.
I got to read books.
Play with American Girl Dolls.
Laugh at Photo Booth for over an hour.
Talk about everything we want to do for the upcoming holidays.
Look at Valentines.
Sing songs.
Tuck them in.
Say nighty night prayers.
And OF COURSE
Dance to Hannah Montana.
(listen to the very end...right to sleep...
maybe what we all thought of Book of Mormon stories at that age??)
And I remembered what I said when I was just a wee one.
When I grow up I want to be just like my Mom...
And all the rest...
all the education
all the papers
all the interviews and big names..
all of that is
just the cherry on the top.
6 comments:
Good thoughts Karly. I've always believed it is important to study what interests you - even if you never end up working in that field - why study something you don't have an interest in? Mark got his degree at BYU in Russian. Does he work in that field -heck no, he is a plastic surgeon - but he was interested in studying Russian during his undergrad. He doesn't regret choosing that degree at all. I think that it makes him all the more well-rounded surgeon. My degree was in Political Science. My hope was to go on to law school, but my plans changed and I got married instead and worked. I didn't work in my field of study, but still had an awesome job because I had a bachelors degree. Education is so important. You are on the right track and doing what you should be doing in your life right now.
Karly, I think you are an amazing young woman and love reading your blog. Hope you will put me on your list of readers. Patti Harris
Karly: Being a mom is great and such a rewarding and fun experience that I am sure you will be fabulous at! For the moment, enjoy being young, doing all you heart desires, and more!! Dreaming and having goals is a never ending!!
You are such a winner, Kar. I'm forever impressed by you. And always have to laugh when our current thoughts/ life dilemmas match up :)
Hey sweet cheeks. Thanks for sharing these thoughts. I think you're doing everything just as you should be. And I LOVE the quote from Elder Holland. He is my absolute faaaaaavorite. Love him, love him, LOVE him. He hit it on the head. Don't be afraid to educate yourself. It doesn't mean you're giving up motherhood. You're just enhancing it. Be an example to the children you'll one day have: work hard, set goals, find something you love and stick with it.
My kiddos love you and I love you! Right...to...sleep...
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