Welp, its true.
I am pregnant.
And we are feeling so very blessed.
I use the word blessed like it is going out of style.
But I don't know how else to describe it.
From the time I was a little girl I have watched my family members yearn for children -
many times facing trials that I will never be able to understand.
They have helped me value motherhood and pregnancy.
It is beautiful.
It is a miracle.
And it is something that does not come easily to many people.
I have often found myself wondering, why?
Why was I able to have this happen while many of my friends and family have not?
Which is why I have promised myself to enjoy every. single. moment.
The good and the bad -
I will take it all because I know so many would do anything to have the bad in order to have the good.
After watching so many struggle I just knew...
I had that gut feeling...
it was going to take me 6 months to a year to get pregnant.
So, James and I started earnestly praying when the right time was for us.
I have never prayed so earnestly about something.
Nor have I ever gotten such a strong answer.
It was time to start trying.
And we both knew it - and we knew it for sure.
{Due date: April 27, 2012}
As evidenced in this picture -
We couldn't really believe our eyes.
Again, why were we so blessed?
The first line was so faint - I simply disregarded it.
But when James got home and looked at the test he doubtfully exclaimed that there were two lines.
I was certain that it was only because it had been sitting under our light.
So, I took the second test.
Still a faint line.
We decided to wait a few days before we believed it.
But I just couldn't wait.
So the next day I went and bought the second box of tests.
I took BOTH tests.
I texted James the pictures.
It was starting to become more real.
I called my Mom - could this really be happening so quickly?
I swore her to secrecy.
I wanted to surprise her along with the rest of the family -
but I didn't know what to do at this point and needed advice.
She suggested I wait a few more days and take another test to be certain.
None of us believed it.
A few days later I took a digital test and saw the word PREGNANT pop up.
Now it was for real.
And from that moment on we have been absolutely
enamored with the little munchkin inside.